Am I the only person listening to this, the whole way through, imaging him in an echoing room in front of a mirror and screaming at himself in confusion? Sort of like an American McGee take on Alice in Wonderland. Only the looking glass goes no where and he sees his own reflection taunting at him, making wild gestures of retaliation into the shallow confines of his mind.
It's the alpha dog trying to kill itself to out do the current alpha of the pack.
This man needs a good coffee in his life.